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An engagement of my friend yenney....im proud of her cuz she got her love 1 to keep her and it was so sweet during their engagemnt~im happy for her and i hope i got sum1 who will do like them too but........all the time their engagement ,i felt jealous~y?cuz i was thinking of sum1 who said to me dat will  marid me but where r he?its a month ago we have been broke up but y still thinking of him and hopefully he will keeps me........i guess only me de 1 who have think it~he said to me just be friend but at fb we cant~what its mean for?lmfao....de shit i ever got is kinda guy like him n say miss u bfore we cntinue to not keep in touch!!!!u know i miss u but u give another shit to throw to me....and indeed i hurting by what u have msg to me~!!!!sob~ T^T im not kinda strong girl...i wana b alone n trying to frget you so i am put so much hope dat u wont come  here by november cuz i scared if i meet u....i cant let u go dat time~please lord.....give me ur strength.~T___T

I Hate This Feeling T^T

Its already 1 month we didnt contact each other since i break with him but hell yeah.....till now i still miss him even though we didnt together already~why its so hard to forget some1.....He the only 1 and de last 1 person who i have love loved him so much but our relationship was end by me~its not i want to be regret but i should be persuade myself that im so proud cuz once he is mine with a thousand sweet memories in nearly of a year of relationship and i should pray for him that he get a gud result~I hope that i could forget him cuz i dont want seem so weak by dat....~when im alone,i replace him by my tears...when i need him,i replace him by my teddy bear...when i need a hug,i replace him by my stinky pillow.....thats so hard to me but thanks to my God who olwez by my side whenever im in trouble or being so unhappy~Thanks for everything.....u just help me to smile back~But my heart now bcome fragile already....i hope it will be heal someday T^T IMY so much my Hubby CD...

Raining Day Make Me Sick T-T

Whole week every evening....it will be rain fall so hard~Damn it!!!!it make my Johnny get dirt by de mug....huhuhu~And it make me sick bcume more terrible than before~Early morning as usual i wake up and get ready to take breakfast bfore work...i was eating rice and dumpling for my breakfast and i eat it all~ ^_^ how good am i can eat it finish but..........i vomit it all cause i felt didnt well at my stomach..it seem like gastric T^T OMG~!!!twice i vomit it and i see my breakfast food was out from my mouth...huhuhuh~Damn!!Damn!!!my food T^T huhuhuuh.....Before i faint to my bed,i call to my boss that i cant go to work....huhuhu~i didnt mean want to be sick but she understand for dat...huhuhuuu~now i felt a bit ok than just now at morning....but now i felt mirgaine cause of toothache~hahahhaa...what a bad day to me....and still raining here....im just listening de sound of pour raining while typing here.....this is how i can do than sleep whole day cause i was left alone at home while my parents going out for shopping~ T^T hurmmm... i wish i could get well ASAP!!!! i dont like to be seem so weak~huhuuhu...and i hope he was health as before and got drink plenty of water even i dont know how are he but i just pray for it...~hope tomorrow will be a sunshine day ^_^ (v)

My last day....my last night...my today....

Sometimes i think his cousin red are coming...OooPzz~guys doesnt have it but ya i always think he is....sometimes he mad me for no reason like before,i text to him n he didint reply msg to me so ive learned from my friend muimui to spam that msg & hell yeah,he mad me cause im spam him while he was studying =.= so till now,i didint dare to spam again...i guess my friend's idea is no used to him~huhuhu.....and we were fight X~( but the next day,he try to bully me by post on my wall fb with his language~and ya.....i even didint know what he post it with the word ' sumbunk tontutnu sino' cause im not rungus de so i decided to ask his friend floey,and to translate it and it means 'sombong,kedut ko sana'....and ya,,i didnt do any make he said im arrogant TT so im asking him why,and he said that i always said him arrogant while he was studying...LoL~i didnt said like that to him and ya,,im make joking said that he is arrogant till dont want entertain me.....and i know i was joke around with him but he didnt~!!!he mad me at early of morning and im crying on that day (22/07/11)...cause i didnt know where i have did wrong till he so mad TT im just want he can accompany with me cause i have so many things that i want to tell him~but so sad that i didnt have my wish come true.....so i decided that if he have free time just txt with me and i will reply but i wont FIND HIM first....!!!!....


Last night,,he full time msging with me and i guess his cousin red have already gone....so happy^^ that he wont mad me again by his cousin red....we have vchat last night till midnight~im glad to see his face in happy while eating infront of me!!!OMG~~he make me starving TT .... it just a few minute we vchat cause i ddnt pro by that Friendcameo at FB....hehehehee,,i wish i can vchat with him in real by vchat F2F (Face to Face).....i wish to have it on my dream...n ya i hope it wont my day dreammm^^hehehehee.....the pic that i have to show which i with him using friendcameo~^^silly face are we.... <3


Today,,im full of stress by work and stupid salesman really give me mad!!!he ask me to do which it was not my job and he yell at me by that and ya i yelling him back that i wont do a things cause thats not my work so dont just call me like a dog to listen your DAMN SHITT words!!!!i am yelling him infront of customer...see who will b shame for that but ya,,im dont want have a high blood so i decided to stop it and make like i dont know what happen and forget it.....close conversation with the salesman and i didnt realize i have make customer afraid with me....im sorry,,i didnt mean to be 'ayu girl'....~thats so worst day TT huhuhuh....hope i wont do dat again...lock door when resting time...thats a good idea which could save my high blood pleasure...hahahhah ^^(v)

Me & Muimui

Truly i didnt realise that we being friends for 9 years since i have know her at church of Methodist~ hehehe,,she helped me alot...1st things she ever help me to comfort me when i have problem with my hubby...den the second is she help me at work when i was so many things that i need to handle it,third,she teach me how to order by web and she help me to make my blog^^but she wil left me when coming in august~i dont want far from her....ill miss her if she not at my side but ya,,i want her to cntinue her study and wish her luck when she bcome a student of UMS~^^so i need to be strong like her~huhuhuhu....Thanks God that u introduce me Yong Ken Mui to me...i never regret to know her...she is my friends and help me to take care of her~...GBU^^

Life full of black and white

Time to time...day to day....and it wont going back like before~it pass so fast than i realize how big i am and how big this world that i have journey~People are change when they already grow up then so are me....i have learn to be matured and a communication to the people which have 2 faced...(be careful when talking with him/her)~i have learn to be talkative and learn how to be survived in this corrupted world....In this world,,i still havent understnd it all....mny people are selfish,and some of them are too humble and some are so childish but shame of them that they are older than me....hehehee,,things can change easily than we knew it...and i know,if i said i want like before when i was 4 years old and being hug by mom n dad,no stress just playing...laughing all time and no worries~things are hard to be going back..just left memories that make me nostalgia all days....people said...dont look back,but look forwad....n hell ya,,i am searching for my future...i dont want this world controlling me but i want to control this world~(if i can)..hahahhaha...life is not easy....more war,more hungries,more people die....and i need to said thanks to Malaysia which didnt have this~im so lucky to live in Sabah...which i can see the colourful of culture~but im so sorry if who living in Sabah was so hard to be live....i have seen many people in sabah have own trouble like me too~I always strees early morning and stress in house....Im only 20 yers old but it looks like im getting bcome more like 50 years old....keep thinking rapidly~thinking...thinking....and wish can to be a 4 yers old of me....Miss that moment already~TT

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