I Hate This Feeling T^T

Its already 1 month we didnt contact each other since i break with him but hell yeah.....till now i still miss him even though we didnt together already~why its so hard to forget some1.....He the only 1 and de last 1 person who i have love loved him so much but our relationship was end by me~its not i want to be regret but i should be persuade myself that im so proud cuz once he is mine with a thousand sweet memories in nearly of a year of relationship and i should pray for him that he get a gud result~I hope that i could forget him cuz i dont want seem so weak by dat....~when im alone,i replace him by my tears...when i need him,i replace him by my teddy bear...when i need a hug,i replace him by my stinky pillow.....thats so hard to me but thanks to my God who olwez by my side whenever im in trouble or being so unhappy~Thanks for everything.....u just help me to smile back~But my heart now bcome fragile already....i hope it will be heal someday T^T IMY so much my Hubby CD...

Raining Day Make Me Sick T-T

Whole week every evening....it will be rain fall so hard~Damn it!!!!it make my Johnny get dirt by de mug....huhuhu~And it make me sick bcume more terrible than before~Early morning as usual i wake up and get ready to take breakfast bfore work...i was eating rice and dumpling for my breakfast and i eat it all~ ^_^ how good am i can eat it finish but..........i vomit it all cause i felt didnt well at my stomach..it seem like gastric T^T OMG~!!!twice i vomit it and i see my breakfast food was out from my mouth...huhuhuh~Damn!!Damn!!!my food T^T huhuhuuh.....Before i faint to my bed,i call to my boss that i cant go to work....huhuhu~i didnt mean want to be sick but she understand for dat...huhuhuuu~now i felt a bit ok than just now at morning....but now i felt mirgaine cause of toothache~hahahhaa...what a bad day to me....and still raining here....im just listening de sound of pour raining while typing here.....this is how i can do than sleep whole day cause i was left alone at home while my parents going out for shopping~ T^T hurmmm... i wish i could get well ASAP!!!! i dont like to be seem so weak~huhuuhu...and i hope he was health as before and got drink plenty of water even i dont know how are he but i just pray for it...~hope tomorrow will be a sunshine day ^_^ (v)