I Hate This Feeling T^T

Its already 1 month we didnt contact each other since i break with him but hell yeah.....till now i still miss him even though we didnt together already~why its so hard to forget some1.....He the only 1 and de last 1 person who i have love loved him so much but our relationship was end by me~its not i want to be regret but i should be persuade myself that im so proud cuz once he is mine with a thousand sweet memories in nearly of a year of relationship and i should pray for him that he get a gud result~I hope that i could forget him cuz i dont want seem so weak by dat....~when im alone,i replace him by my tears...when i need him,i replace him by my teddy bear...when i need a hug,i replace him by my stinky pillow.....thats so hard to me but thanks to my God who olwez by my side whenever im in trouble or being so unhappy~Thanks for everything.....u just help me to smile back~But my heart now bcome fragile already....i hope it will be heal someday T^T IMY so much my Hubby CD...